Oh my god.....
I dont think im going to be able to sleep tonight. I am on such a complete buzzing high!! Ive been waiting on my benefits so that I could go to the LondonExpo (which is this weekend) and my dad has said thats hes going to pay for me to go as a birthday present!! OMG!! How cool is that?!?! I can't stop shaking with the pure excitement I am feeling at the thought of getting to meet Paul McGillion (Its CARSON!!!!) and the absolutely amazing Amanda Tapping,w ho I probably wont be able to speak around as ive grown up watching her. She's going to be soooooo cool!! The real, full reason I am this excited is the fact that I finally get to meet Damian Kindler face to face! I've spoken to him, but never met him so I am sooo nervous about it. What am I going to say to him? I'll be shaking like a leaf!!
Oh man...... I need to calm down and to at least try to get some sleep.
Monday, 21 May 2007
Saturday, 19 May 2007
Seriously Considering Moving To Vancouver
Ive been thinking today that I really need to do something with my life. My joints are getting bad incredibly quickly and if they continue to deteriate at this rate, im not going to have much chance to follow my dream of working in the media business.
Visiting Vancouver has been a long time dream of mine and I have recently started to think about what it would be like to live there. Vanocuver is becoming a center for media companies and tv/film productions so I would kind of be working for 2 dreams in one. If im going to do this, I need to do it soon, otherwise i'll be in no fit state to be able to do what I want to do. Ive just got to build up the courage to be able to ask my dad for help as I know that I wont be able to do it without him. Any kind of started job for a media company and I would do it! Hell, id even be teh tea lady if it meant getting my foot in the door. I just need to start planning it all out and find a way of doing it.
I feel like I need to do this. With everything that ive been through here in Yate, I need a fresh start and I need to start chasing my dream.
Now, to the planning!!
Visiting Vancouver has been a long time dream of mine and I have recently started to think about what it would be like to live there. Vanocuver is becoming a center for media companies and tv/film productions so I would kind of be working for 2 dreams in one. If im going to do this, I need to do it soon, otherwise i'll be in no fit state to be able to do what I want to do. Ive just got to build up the courage to be able to ask my dad for help as I know that I wont be able to do it without him. Any kind of started job for a media company and I would do it! Hell, id even be teh tea lady if it meant getting my foot in the door. I just need to start planning it all out and find a way of doing it.
I feel like I need to do this. With everything that ive been through here in Yate, I need a fresh start and I need to start chasing my dream.
Now, to the planning!!
Friday, 18 May 2007
Sunday, 13 May 2007
I need to vent, life is hell
Okay,
I am making this post as I seriously need to vent out my emotions and just get it all out there in the open.
To start things off, as you guys know, my step-mum has cancer. This weekend was the weekend in which she had her first lot of chemo therapy. I was worried an stressed enough by that, then my landlord decided to call me.
I cant stand my landlords. They dont seem to understand anything.
Last week, I was supposed to pay my rent. but I didnt, as I never received my income support cheque. now, I went to the JobCentre and told them all about it. they said that the cheque had been sent out. So either it got lost in teh post, or one of my 3 housemates took it. The JobCentre said that I would need to fill in a form if I wanted to claim back the missing cheque. So i did and straight afterwards I sent a text to the landlords son (who basically runs their business) to let him know what was going on.
So, anyway, as I said before, I recieved a phone call and text from my landlord saying, basically, that I need to pay them the rent that I owe tomorrow or they will start advertising my room.
Its ridiculous!! They know I cant get them that money! I seriously dont know what im going to do. Plus!! On top of that, I STILL havent heard anything about my disability benefits.
My whole life seems to be crumbling around me at the moment and its all just becoming too much. I just wish that everything would sort itself out and that i wouldnt have to worry anymore.
I am making this post as I seriously need to vent out my emotions and just get it all out there in the open.
To start things off, as you guys know, my step-mum has cancer. This weekend was the weekend in which she had her first lot of chemo therapy. I was worried an stressed enough by that, then my landlord decided to call me.
I cant stand my landlords. They dont seem to understand anything.
Last week, I was supposed to pay my rent. but I didnt, as I never received my income support cheque. now, I went to the JobCentre and told them all about it. they said that the cheque had been sent out. So either it got lost in teh post, or one of my 3 housemates took it. The JobCentre said that I would need to fill in a form if I wanted to claim back the missing cheque. So i did and straight afterwards I sent a text to the landlords son (who basically runs their business) to let him know what was going on.
So, anyway, as I said before, I recieved a phone call and text from my landlord saying, basically, that I need to pay them the rent that I owe tomorrow or they will start advertising my room.
Its ridiculous!! They know I cant get them that money! I seriously dont know what im going to do. Plus!! On top of that, I STILL havent heard anything about my disability benefits.
My whole life seems to be crumbling around me at the moment and its all just becoming too much. I just wish that everything would sort itself out and that i wouldnt have to worry anymore.
Thursday, 10 May 2007
Just A Random Update...
Okay,
its been a few days since i've updated, so I thought that I should let you guys know whats going on at the moment with me.
First off, I am STILL waiting on my benefits. Its almost 12 weeks now! how ridiculous is that?! They said that they do it before 12 weeks, but nooooo. It's like they are doing this to just me. how long can it take to make one decision? if it takes any longer i'm going to be forced to borrow some money off of my dad to be able to go to the LondonExpo, but I really don't want it to come to that as I don't feel it's right to ask him for anything at the moment as my step-mum has her first lot of chemo this weekend.
I really want to go to the Expo as I really want to meet all teh Sanctuary fans that are going. And ive been asked to share a hotel room with 3 other people (possibly 4) so it will only cost me: £37.50 for the weekend if we just get one room and £60.40 if we get two rooms. Thats hardly anything at all. I dont think he would really mind lending me that money. Its not like I even need a lot of money for the weekend. I only want 3 autographs (Damian Kindler, Amanda Tapping & Paul McGillion) and if they take part in photo sessions, I would like to have my pictures taken with them. Then i'm going for a meal with 3 people on the friday night. But thats it! Thats not much at all. I'm not going to buy any other autographs or any merchandise, unless I actually have the money to but it.
I am begging the benefit people to make their decision in time. I have to go! I seriously feel like I have to! Damian Kindler says that he hopes I can go, plus Amanda Taping knows im going to!!
Come on benefit people!!!
PPPPLLLLLLEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its been a few days since i've updated, so I thought that I should let you guys know whats going on at the moment with me.
First off, I am STILL waiting on my benefits. Its almost 12 weeks now! how ridiculous is that?! They said that they do it before 12 weeks, but nooooo. It's like they are doing this to just me. how long can it take to make one decision? if it takes any longer i'm going to be forced to borrow some money off of my dad to be able to go to the LondonExpo, but I really don't want it to come to that as I don't feel it's right to ask him for anything at the moment as my step-mum has her first lot of chemo this weekend.
I really want to go to the Expo as I really want to meet all teh Sanctuary fans that are going. And ive been asked to share a hotel room with 3 other people (possibly 4) so it will only cost me: £37.50 for the weekend if we just get one room and £60.40 if we get two rooms. Thats hardly anything at all. I dont think he would really mind lending me that money. Its not like I even need a lot of money for the weekend. I only want 3 autographs (Damian Kindler, Amanda Tapping & Paul McGillion) and if they take part in photo sessions, I would like to have my pictures taken with them. Then i'm going for a meal with 3 people on the friday night. But thats it! Thats not much at all. I'm not going to buy any other autographs or any merchandise, unless I actually have the money to but it.
I am begging the benefit people to make their decision in time. I have to go! I seriously feel like I have to! Damian Kindler says that he hopes I can go, plus Amanda Taping knows im going to!!
Come on benefit people!!!
PPPPLLLLLLEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, 5 May 2007
Bored.... yet again
Man...
I always seem to be bored at the moment, don't I?
It probably has something to do with the fact that everytime I try to something, my mind sticks in someway. I experience some kind of mental block about what ever it is I am trying to do. And, yes, I know that I am probably repeating things that I have said in previous blogs, but I am trying to find something to do!
I'll try to think of something different to write about.....
hmmm........
I'll think of something.................
Okay, I got something......
........................................... nope, it escaped me. What is it with my mind at the moment?
Okay.... i'll stop it now.
But I can't promise that I wont post another blog later
I always seem to be bored at the moment, don't I?
It probably has something to do with the fact that everytime I try to something, my mind sticks in someway. I experience some kind of mental block about what ever it is I am trying to do. And, yes, I know that I am probably repeating things that I have said in previous blogs, but I am trying to find something to do!
I'll try to think of something different to write about.....
hmmm........
I'll think of something.................
Okay, I got something......
........................................... nope, it escaped me. What is it with my mind at the moment?
Okay.... i'll stop it now.
But I can't promise that I wont post another blog later
Looking for creative inspiration
As you probably guessed from the title of this blog, I am currently looking for some creative inspiration. I am trying to do several things:
+ Finish the Dan Payne/Alice, I Think/John Macleod Fan-vid.
+ Finish the Kate Hewlett Fansite.
+ Create my page for the *Sanctuary* Thankyou Book.
+ Write a fanfic to put in the series I am starting up about what John Sheppard & Teyla Emmagan (Stargate: Atlantis) do in their spare time.
+ Create live-journal headers for: The Sanctuary Fan-Art community, The Dan Payne Live-journal Community, The Robin Dunne Live-journal Community (And probably some more....).
My mind has come to a complete block about all of it. I never seem to be satisified with that I do on any of the pieces. Arrgghhhh........... I know what I want to do with each thing, but it never turns out that way, *lol*. If I try to do one thing at a time, it doesnt seem to work either. I've tried listening to different music, watching different films, etc... to find some inspiration, but nothing seems to be helping.
Man, why does this always happen to me? :P
+ Finish the Dan Payne/Alice, I Think/John Macleod Fan-vid.
+ Finish the Kate Hewlett Fansite.
+ Create my page for the *Sanctuary* Thankyou Book.
+ Write a fanfic to put in the series I am starting up about what John Sheppard & Teyla Emmagan (Stargate: Atlantis) do in their spare time.
+ Create live-journal headers for: The Sanctuary Fan-Art community, The Dan Payne Live-journal Community, The Robin Dunne Live-journal Community (And probably some more....).
My mind has come to a complete block about all of it. I never seem to be satisified with that I do on any of the pieces. Arrgghhhh........... I know what I want to do with each thing, but it never turns out that way, *lol*. If I try to do one thing at a time, it doesnt seem to work either. I've tried listening to different music, watching different films, etc... to find some inspiration, but nothing seems to be helping.
Man, why does this always happen to me? :P
Ignatius The Philisophical Clown (Aka- Robin Dunne)
Ignatius The Philisophical Clown (Aka- Robin Dunne)
Yep, you read that right:
Robin Dunne!!
As in *Will Zimmerman* in the great up and coming online programme *Sanctuary*.
This is an absolutely hilarious video and....
well....
I dont think I need to say anymore...................
Yep, you read that right:
Robin Dunne!!
As in *Will Zimmerman* in the great up and coming online programme *Sanctuary*.
This is an absolutely hilarious video and....
well....
I dont think I need to say anymore...................
Friday, 4 May 2007
STILL trying to make my John Macleod fanvid
Yep,
thats right, I am STILL trying to make my Alice, I Think/John Macleod/Dan Payne fan-vid!! I can't belive it is taking me sooo long. Everytime I try to do things and add clips to it, my mind blogs and I keep thinking that i've made it wrong so I take a lot of the clips away. I really want to get this video done as soon as I can, but I don't want to rush it, just for the sake of getting it done soon and then not be happy with the finished result. I want to get it right. I know that I have to. As its my first ever fan-vid, I want it to be as good as I can get it. Plus there is the whole fact that the subject of the video, Mr. Dan Payne, knows that I am making the video. That is making me really nervous as I don't want to disappoint him. I am determined not to change the music, but if I carry on getting it wrong, as it were, I think I may have to.
Have any of you seen the show? If so, what songs do you think would suit Dans character, John Macleod?
I have to get this done!! *lol*
thats right, I am STILL trying to make my Alice, I Think/John Macleod/Dan Payne fan-vid!! I can't belive it is taking me sooo long. Everytime I try to do things and add clips to it, my mind blogs and I keep thinking that i've made it wrong so I take a lot of the clips away. I really want to get this video done as soon as I can, but I don't want to rush it, just for the sake of getting it done soon and then not be happy with the finished result. I want to get it right. I know that I have to. As its my first ever fan-vid, I want it to be as good as I can get it. Plus there is the whole fact that the subject of the video, Mr. Dan Payne, knows that I am making the video. That is making me really nervous as I don't want to disappoint him. I am determined not to change the music, but if I carry on getting it wrong, as it were, I think I may have to.
Have any of you seen the show? If so, what songs do you think would suit Dans character, John Macleod?
I have to get this done!! *lol*
Thursday, 3 May 2007
Bored, Painful And Annoyed
Okay, I know that i've been posting a lot of blogs recently but i've been seriously bored and i'm getting annoyed about a lot of things.
Everything seems to be going insane around me.
As you know, theres finding out my step mum has cancer, which really threw things up in the air.
But, recently, i've been in constant pain. Like today, parts of both my ankles decided to just pop out and are now refusing to go back in. And the rest of my joints............ I cant even touch on the pain im feeling with those. i dont know why, but since I saw the doctor at the hospital, the rate at which my joints were getting worse has increased dramatically. Because of this, I cant carry my shopping home anymore, so I have to get a taxi everytime. And that decreases the amount of money I actually have to spend on food. I currently get £92 every fortnight and £52.40 of that goes on rent. Thats leaves barely anything for food anyway, with out the cost of taxis thrown in. If I seriously keepy living on this amount of money, I will lose weight (im skinny enough as it is) and my joints will continue to deteriate.
I need the disability living allowance that ive been waiting 10 weeks for or my health will be seriously damaged.
Everything seems to be going insane around me.
As you know, theres finding out my step mum has cancer, which really threw things up in the air.
But, recently, i've been in constant pain. Like today, parts of both my ankles decided to just pop out and are now refusing to go back in. And the rest of my joints............ I cant even touch on the pain im feeling with those. i dont know why, but since I saw the doctor at the hospital, the rate at which my joints were getting worse has increased dramatically. Because of this, I cant carry my shopping home anymore, so I have to get a taxi everytime. And that decreases the amount of money I actually have to spend on food. I currently get £92 every fortnight and £52.40 of that goes on rent. Thats leaves barely anything for food anyway, with out the cost of taxis thrown in. If I seriously keepy living on this amount of money, I will lose weight (im skinny enough as it is) and my joints will continue to deteriate.
I need the disability living allowance that ive been waiting 10 weeks for or my health will be seriously damaged.
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