Argh! She Lost Them All!!

I feel like I am going to kill my now former housemate.

When she moved out of the house, she left a box of the dvd's that I leant her in the living room so that I could find them easily (or so she says). Now they have all gone missing!!

Why would you leave someones things in a house full of people neither of you know anyway?!?!

The thing that really, REALLY pisses me off is the fact that in the box were basically ALL my *Stargate* dvds.
I had a boxset of seasons 1-7 of *Sg1*- that was in the box.
3 discs from season 9- they were in the box.
Most of my season 6 & 7 boxsets- in the box.
ALL my Atlantis dvds- IN THE BOX!!!

And to top it all off, 3 more dvds were in there.... my favourites....... my whole Special Extended Editions of *The Lord Of The Rings* Trilogy. My favourite films ever!!

Basicallly over £200 worth of my things that I trusted her with and she's lost them. Either that or she is just keeping them and lying to me.

If someone who is in the house now doesnt come forward with them, I am going to tell the Landlords that i am going to get the police involved, as either place they could be is to do with landlords (the ***** has moved into another one of their accomodations). If my stuff isnt recovered.... she's going to buy it all back for me.

This is just what I need on top of everything else that is happening to me right now.

I apologise for the last entry guys...

I just wanted to apologise for my last entry guys. I was feeling really down and just needed to get it off of my chest. I think I know what i'm going to do, i'm pretty sure and I have about a month to make up my mind.

My boyfriend knows how nervous I am. He knows that I struggle to believe that someone could actually care for me the way he does. I'm just very confused at the moment by this big step, but I know that it will be alright in the end :)

Have I Made The Right Decision?

All I can think about at this moment is whether or not I have made the right decision over something.

Sometime this month, I am supposed to be moving in with my boyfriend. I am really worried over whetehr or not this is even remotely a good idea. I have been thinking for months, possibly even a year (or even more), over whether or not I should break up with him. I care for him, I really do, but i'm not sure if i'm in love with him or even attracted to him (What the hell is wrong with me?!). I don't know whether its my mind having doubts about this, or me just thinking *how can he love me? Why would someone feel that way about me?* At this moment, my self esteem is at an all time low, I dont know whether or not that has something to do with this doubts that i'm having, but.... argh!! I don't even know what to write her, i'm so confused. What the hell is wrong with me?! If he really cares for me, how can I put him through this? What if I move in, then break up with him a few months down the line?

I don't know how I feel about him. I don't have any reason not to love him. He's..... what the hell is wrong with me? Why am I so confused about this? I'm in tears just typing this, so I apologise if it makes no sense at all. I just had to putit down and get my emotions and everything out. I can barely even think about things at the moment. Why am I thinking like this? Why can't I just be happy for myself for once?

Why does everything have to go wrong?