Have I Made The Right Decision?

All I can think about at this moment is whether or not I have made the right decision over something.

Sometime this month, I am supposed to be moving in with my boyfriend. I am really worried over whetehr or not this is even remotely a good idea. I have been thinking for months, possibly even a year (or even more), over whether or not I should break up with him. I care for him, I really do, but i'm not sure if i'm in love with him or even attracted to him (What the hell is wrong with me?!). I don't know whether its my mind having doubts about this, or me just thinking *how can he love me? Why would someone feel that way about me?* At this moment, my self esteem is at an all time low, I dont know whether or not that has something to do with this doubts that i'm having, but.... argh!! I don't even know what to write her, i'm so confused. What the hell is wrong with me?! If he really cares for me, how can I put him through this? What if I move in, then break up with him a few months down the line?

I don't know how I feel about him. I don't have any reason not to love him. He's..... what the hell is wrong with me? Why am I so confused about this? I'm in tears just typing this, so I apologise if it makes no sense at all. I just had to putit down and get my emotions and everything out. I can barely even think about things at the moment. Why am I thinking like this? Why can't I just be happy for myself for once?

Why does everything have to go wrong?